drama, drama, drama

i often feel that if i remain perfectly still the drama will just pass me by. if only that were true.

the past few weeks i have been drowning in drama. there was no hiding from it or escaping it. it just was, and i just was immersed in deep doo from sun up to sun down. drama was relentless. it's not completely over but it has eased a bit. so here are pics of things i've been working on. and the penguin atc swap came in. i am just going to post the pics, i am too worn out to talk much about what or why, it just is what it is. Much much love, if u see drama coming, please get out of the way. there's no need for both of us to be caught in it.

soul journaling

I ran across this while i was blog surfing and sarahwhitmire.blogspot is doing a day by day post of her soul journal. It is pretty cool and I would love to do this but i have a terrible time with the day to day thing. so once in a while i will post what i have done so far and leave it at that. I also will not be following rules or guidelines to the letter so i get what i get. can't be helped. here are pics of what i've done so far. I used an old calendar.

also the dragonfly swap cards arrived yesterday, aren't they cute?

boredom has set in

like rigor mortis, Gypsy and i can hardly stand it. i tried to watch my netflix movie, now showing in the blue room - Mad Money with Diane Keaton, Queen Latifah and katie holmes. Diane Keaton is one of my favorite neurotic actors but i have to be really calm to watch her most days and today was not that day. i was grinding my teeth and flinching, worrying about what was going to happen to them if they got caught. i fast forwarded to the end. i never do that, that was my clue. so i'll watch it later.

i pulled out the paints instead. they aren't dry but here they are. i squirted paint directly on the canvases, and tried to have fun. difficult to do when ur body is determined to have an anxiety attack. but i managed.

My daughter woke me up early this morning to tell me Bernie Mac was dead of pneumonia at the age of 50. It was as if she said my Uncle Bernie had passed away. I really wasn't a fan of Bernie Mac. I loved his stand-up routine, better than his show or his movies but i thought of him as family. I have no idea why. perhaps he does remind me of an uncle who knows. Good-by Bernie Mac, we miss u.

babs, emule, mushroom

my SIL has decided that taking babooshka out of his cage everyday and holding him will make him less evil. silly little man. anyway theres a pic of babs and one of emule the big lug and of course a mushroom in the front yard. again. my daughter ( who is far far away) hates when the mushrooms arrive, but i love them and am filled with glee at the sight of them. all the more cus it irritates the hell out of my daughter. so every year they arrive and every year i take a pic. don't look at the grass though, sil has not cut it yet. and my baby girls birthday hat that i sent to her. of course she was too cute to wear it but i got a kick out of making it for her. sometimes its fun to annoy the children. *:)

trades, swaps

here are pics of the sunflower and owl swap. theres also the cards i swapped for blue bird goddess and oxford owl. And my wings atc paperdoll has finally arrived from Canada along with a little paper doll the artist says was inspired by me. isn't it nice to know u have inspired someone u never met. *:D

better now

no sooner than i posted my feelings and misgivings about the series of unfortunate events happening to me, aha, a window opened. i love the universe, it rules, totally. so things are not only better they are awesome. somedays it is good to be a spiritual being having a human experience. so, i've got books to read, blogs to share and of course pics. where to start, well the books will be listed in what i'm reading now. all of them are good reads so far, except i feel button button could have had more innovative ideas instead of just alot of sewing buttons on store bought things. i love the button flowers so of course i will be making some.

okay art-junkies.blogspot.com what can i say, i love them, by linking to them i then found arttradermag.com OMG this is delicious AND nutricious, but i simply must mention trishbee.uk.co who started it all YAY. it is true one thing leads to another, and all these people led me right out of my miserability (YEA I KNOW) and back on track. thank you wonderful artists for being real and OPEN.

okay the pics are the last of the amulet trade, pretty green and lovely aborigine hottie (yum). blue bird goddess and oxford owl flew away and went to live with Mickey jo. and i made paperdolls from painted paper towel scraps. i was cutting out leaves for the green collage i'm working on and some of the scraps looked like dresses to me so. results.

project runway and dr. who

no pics today, i am in a blue mood. not the peaceful melancholy i usually float with but an ugly ick feeling of boredom and feduppedness. it's still simmering on the backburner but something is bothering me. i have tons of things to work on but i'm not getting anything done this week. okay, very little. okay very little for me, but the thing is, i'm not happy and i'm not exactly sure why. i love it that we all have a sixth sense about things and some of us listen and act on these feelings and others of us are seemingly oblivious, some days i wish i were the latter. i hate it some days when i can see so far down the road, i can see you coming before you leave your house. so before you've made the days decisions i already know where we are going with this. this is the feeling i am having right now, well all week really. i am praying i am wrong, i will be so disappointed if i am right, just once please please please don't be predictable. sigh

meanwhile this week on television, project runway made me sad this week. on the one hand the beautiful and beloved green goddess Natalie Portman was a guest judge and i was so happy to see her, she has her own organic shoe line, take us on, i think. on the other hand i was very sad for some of the designers, they were crying, already. this does not bode well, the pressure hasn't really begun yet so i was perplexed and well, saddened by events. and i felt so sad for that last little designer with her loopy dress. she was so happy and inspired upon going out then WHAM! not only do they call her designer first year student work but even her model betrayed her. the model does realize that if her designer goes home chances are very good that a two faced backstabbing model will be going home as well. and to have that drama happen in front of Natalie Portman. I empathized with the situation because i think something like that is happening right now, i hope i'm wrong. sigh

Dr. Who!! season finale pt 1!! OMG!! donna, martha, rose, captain jack, sara jane and even the former prime minister and of course the dialects AND the shadow proclamation. is this the last hurrah? r we getting a new doctor? AGAIN?? will everyone really be dead this time? anywho they are going out with a BANG this season. how are they gonna top this? i loved every moment. with everything going on in my head at the moment this was a perfect and wonderful distraction.

my daughters' birthday is coming up soon so i will have pics soon. packages going out, packages coming in. it is busy, i am busy, i'm just also blue.